Tell me why’d you run?Yyou say you’re so ashemed. Bruised and broken. Thought that if I figured the mess you made. That i’d leave.

Because anywhere you are , is never to far away. there’s frreedom from you scars. the mistakes that you’ve made. forgiven. the memories erased. Thats the beauty of grace.

Tell me what is love? i’ll never hold you to the things that you have done. You say you want a new life. In My arms there is mercy.

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You know that song is so true. We mess up and then try to run from God. We know what we did was wrong. And we run. but later on we relize that we can’t run forever and we think that we have been run for way to long that God could never forgive us. That we messed up way to bad this time. But i am writing this to tell you thats not the case at all. God is always ready with open arms. Ready to take you back ready to start using you. There is nothing you can do, theres not a big enough sin out there that will stop God from loving you.

GOD bless

~Amy~

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I call, You hear me. I’ve lost it all. And its more than i can bear. I feel so empty. You’re strong. I’m weak. I’m holdin’ on. But i feel like givin’ in. But still You’re with me. And even though I’m walkin’ through. The valley of the sadow . I will hold tight to the hand of Him. Whose love will comfort me. And when all hope is gone. And I’ve been wounded in the battle. He is all the strength that I will. Ever need. And He will carry me. I know I’m broken. But you alone. Can mend this heart of mine. You’re always with me. And even though i feel so lonely like I’ve never been before You never said it would be easy but you said You’d see me through the storm.

So ive been think and just listening to GOD resently. which is always good.

He questioned / put a burden on my heart. i think he wants me to share it with all who read this. i shared it at the prayer meeting last night. We were praying about missions and this is what God said to me.

Who will go for Me? Who will drop everything they are doing everything they have to go for me? (i know there is something in the bible that sounds just like this, but i couldn’t find it) well anyways i want to be ready for when God asks me to jump up. When He says jump i wanna say how high, when He says run i wanna say how far,

Be ready because GOD can be unpredictable sometimes. He might ask you to go to China or to Spain or he might even ask you to go to school or work and talk to someone there. What ever it is its gonna be hard, theres gonna be fear and we need to put fear behind us because theres something much bigger then fear and it our Lord Jesus Christ. So ask God what He wants you to do. And be ready because it might be something you dont want to do…

I hope this is encouraging.

So this morning i woke up sick again… so i went back to sleep. which was amazing because i had an awesome dream.

Here it is. a few of us were getting ready for war. the commander of the other side captured us and told us to give him all of our weapons i handed it over willingly and told him i have something bigger. He asked what that was. And i told him it was Jesus Christ.  He told me that nothing was gonna save me know. we were sure to be dead from this war. in my dream there were a ton of people from the youth group . when he told me that i grabbed all the christians in the room and sat in a circle praying to get ready praying that God will protect us. We all knew that if we were going to die we would go to heaven. so there was no fear in that. many people got saved. then we went to war.  of chorse on our side though. a few of us died but we praised the Lord because we knew were they had gone. but the majority lived.

i think what this means is that we really need to see that there is something bigger in life then to worry about death or any other problum thats on earth. God is bigger then any other problum, He can fix anything. so put your turst in Him and you will do just fine

Broken heart one more time Pick yourself up why even cry?
Broken pieces in your hand Wonder how you'll make it whole You know,
you pray this can't be the way
You cry, you say somethings gotta change
and mend this porcelian heart of mine,
of mine Someone said a broken heart
Would sting at first then make you stronger
I wonder why this pain remains Were hearts made
whole just to break You know, you pray this can't
be the way You cry, you say somethings gotta change
and mend this porcelian heart of mine Creator only you
take brokeness And create it into beauty once again You
know, you pray this can't be the way You cry, you say
 somethings gotta change You know, you pray this can't
be the way You cry, you say somethings gotta change And
mend this porcelian heart, please mend this porcelian heart
of mine Of mine Creator mend this heart
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There are many things that can cause a broken heart. the first one that pops into
everyones mind is a
guy broke a girls heart in
a dating relationship. That happines, thats why some people don't get into
relationships.
Another cause of a broken heart is, say you have a friend who is going totally
off track
with God ( this is not pointed to
anyone, this is just and example) this person is dating an unsaved person,
going to party's,
drinking, getting into drugs, stilling
they are doing everything they said they were not going to get into . It brakes
 your heart to see a friend
go through that. You try to talk to them about it
but they don't wanna here it. They want to keep on with there sinful nature.
And in another song
by Barlow girl it talks about the
very people who deny God have it better then we as Christians do.
Thats true to a point
they do have it better then us in some
ways, they don't have to repent they don't have to be a countable to anyone.
But in
the end it really doesn't work out. They find
themselves in a hole that they can't get out of. Do you really want to
 be in that same
hole is it really worth all the hurt and the
heart ache? We don't need that popularity in high school and in collage because
its not gonna last.
The things of this world don't
last. only God stands true forever. so don't worry about what people are gonna
 say about you in
school don't worry if there gonna
say something horrible about you living for God. Because living for God is the
 best thing you could
ever do.
 
So are you ready to get out of your comfort zone and willing to get talked
 about and to be put
down for Christ. He wants to do
big things in your life. So fallow after Him. and you life with be better.
i am not saying it would be
easyer because in some ways it wont. but it will better in the end if it isn't
here. People are still
gonna talk about you, but who cares at least they have something to talk about
 
God bless

So a lot of you know that my friend Jason past way Sunday. Jason was a role model and an insperation over all he was an awesome Christian. Hey had bone cancer for many years and still lived strongly for God. Even when the pain was unbearable. Jason was 19 years old. When i found out i was davastated. I could believe that he was really gone. It was and still is hard to eat or sleep. I am found thinking about it all the time. I miss him so much!

But i know God wants me to praise Him through this whole thing. And that is what Jason would want also. Jason doesn’t want is angry at God. He wants us to praise God. Because Jason has no more pain. And he is in a way better place then we are. So if you are starting to doubt or get angry at God pray about it. the enemy is trying to tare you down and it is work for some of you. When i first hurd the news i put this song on so the enemy would have any time to sneak in there and put lies into my head

I was sure by now  God, You would have reached down  And wiped our tears away

Stepped in and saved the day  But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls  I barely hear You whisper through the rain  "

I'm with You"  And as Your mercy falls

 I raise my hands and praise the God who gives

And takes away   CHORUS  I'll praise You in this storm

 And I will lift my hands  For You are who You are

No matter where I am  Every tear I've cried  You hold in

 Your hand  You never left my side  And though my heart is torn

I will praise You in this storm   I remember when  I stumbled in the

wind  You heard my cry  You raised me up again  My strength is almost

 gone  How can I carry on  If I can't find You   As the thunder rolls

  I barely hear You whisper through the rain  "I'm with You"  And as

Your mercy falls  I raise my hands and praise the God who gives  And

takes away   CHORUS   I lift my eyes unto the hills  Where does my help

 come from?  My help comes from the Lord  The Maker of Heaven and Earth

  (repeat)   CHORUS  Though my heart is torn  I will praise You in this storm

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so lets praise God in this terrible storm. Lets not let the enemy

in any more. lets not allow him to feed us anymore lies. Lets do

what God has asked of us and praise Him. Yeah its hard.

Yeah it hurts. but you'll be happy you did

So last night when i was doing my devotions i was reading in Joel chapter two. The same chapter that was preached at Montreal. (man do i miss that place) But anyways. How many of you are excited about this Revival thats gonna be happining soon. I know i am! You know there are gonna be a lot of things in our way when we want to do Gods work. But we have to get them out of our way, right now.   The enemy is really trying even right now to distroy us. the enemy is real and he sees what were doing now and he knows that we are going to do something powerful for God and he hates that. So he gonna try to stop us before we start. Lets be stonger then that. Lets not give in at the first sign of failure. God is there to pick you up off your feet. God is stronger then that

 Were gonna see people be saved that we never though would be saved. and see them become seriouse christians. Were gonna see people be seriouse about God. not just go to church to flurt with boy/girls. Were gonna see drug and alcohol addictions be broken. there is so much that God has in store for us. i just see us all in a huge group i mean HUGE!!!!! just walking, people seeing us and seeing something different…. stadium filled for a prayer meeting because we all cant fit in Julias house any more. Would that be amazing! and i believe God wants to do that AMEN???

So let God work, pray about this revival. talk to people about it. And don’t wait to share Gods love for people… Let make prayer meetings in our schools (for thoughs who don’t have them). Lets stop being afraid of what people might think or say. And stop trying to impress someone. We need to focus on God. totally and completly

leave comments tell me what you think or God has told you about this Revival

All that i’ve been through You were here with me

Even though i was broken and along You still loved me

When i ran from You, You were waiting and calling with open arms

How can i thank You enough?

You died for me so i’m gonna live for You

So i will stand on Your mountain of life 

i will  wait for Your touch

I will go for You not matter how far, not matter how hard

I will hold nothing back

Nothing can stop me from loving You

So i will go confess Your love and Your holyness

No matter what happines i will stand on Your word and belive in Your love

People will hurt me but Your love is stronger then there words

Satan will try to distroy me at times but You are much bigger then him

I will live for You alone, i will not live for this word or anything in it

because Your love is so real

The world brings death

But Your love brings life.

I know it can sound a little corny at parts but really just read the words and really understand what they mean, God is so good. so lets get off our butts and live for Him

Relationships

What everybody wants, but nobody wants to hear about. It something that needs to be talked about. I feel as though God is calling us to a time of singleness. We are still very young and not ready for a relationship. No matter how hard you try to keep your heart safe from the relationship it normally gets snatched away. A few Christians think all you have to do is save sex till marriage. Sure that’s true you do need to save sex until marriage but you also need to save your heart. I have a friend that said that it is alright to kiss your boyfriend or girlfriend, “that’s not giving your heart away”. In my opinion it is. It getting you too attached. Your giving something away that should be saved for the right one, saved for you husband or wife. Some people say to fallow your heart. But your heart is a very dangerous thing to listen to. Like it said in 1^st kings 11, Solomon loved the foreign women but those woman turned Solomon’s heart to other gods. Solomon was in love and was warned, but he wouldn’t listen. He still married those women. He listens to his heart and it only brought him trouble.  Solomon didn’t serve God with all his heart after this. And I think that’s what happens if you get into a relationship to young in life. You stray away from God. You want to have fun. You want to do your own thing. But it has consequences and you tend to fall away from your first love. What everyone needs to do is make standards for themselves and stick to them so you won’t find your self in a relationship that you regret. The relationship should come when you are ready to get married. I will share my standards with you.

1. I will not kiss before my wedding day

2. I will not hold hands before my wedding day

3. I will not have sex with anyone before my wedding day

4. I will not “cuddle” before my wedding day.

I know those might sound like high standards but that’s were I feel they need to be set at. There are still a few more standards that are not listed there.

What I have found that helped me not to think about relationships was not watching television shows with a lot of relationships or with a lot of impurity, also I have stopped listening to secular music (its been almost 2 years since I have chosen to listen to that kind of music.) There are probably some things that you can think of that cause you to think about wanting to be in a relationship. But you need to get those things out of your life right now. God wants you to focus on Him and only Him and when you are in a relationship with some one when you are still young you will be focusing on the person more then God. And it’s not worth it. You’re going to find yourself hurt.

I know some of you might be thinking that I have never been in a relationship before so therefore I don’t know a lot about the subject. And you’re right I haven’t ever been in a relationship before but I have seen people close to me be torn open, ripped apart and left far away from God because of the relationship.

I am sorry if I have offended anyone about what I have said but I feel as though God wanted me to share this.

God bless

Amy Gardner      

Happy Thanksgiving

Give thanks to the Lord our God and King, His love endures forever, for He is good He is above all things His love endures forever… 

Okay well ever since Montreal last weekend God has been putting so many songs in/on my heart. Here are a few of them

There’s gonna be a revival in this land a big big revival in this land… isn’t that so true. God is really gonna move. I don’t know when but i feel that its gonna be soon. Ahh i love that song

There’s a new song arisin in the hearts of His children and new song arisin in the hearts of His own… such and awesome song and it so true

One of my favorites…

Send Your fire, set our hearts ablaze, come consume us, willing hands we raise, Holy Spirit, we’re waiting for your touch, without You there is nothing and this is all in vain, Jesus, come we pray…. such a good song. and it so true. at Montreal the first night they were talking about a fire. And how God is that fire, and how that fire needs to get inside of us and spread wicked fast.

And the last one that i am going to share…

i will not be afraid of ten thousands of people that set themselves against me all about, But thou O Lord art a Shield for me my glory and the Lifter of my head. But thou O Lord are a Shield for me my glory and the Lifter of my head…. you see there is no need to be afraid of anything, God is there with us. He will protect us and His will, will be done. So lets do something big for the Lord….

pray for the revival… Its coming soon and it gonna be awesome, more then we can even imagine!!!!!!!!